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[29.10.2025]
I'M OFFICIALLY A PUBLISHED POET! YIPPEEEEE!
I have two poems - 'Mine Alone' and 'Bitter Winter' - published in Hellbound Books' dark romance anthology 'Beautiful Tragedies IV'. Super exciting! I'm also looking forward to reading other people's submissions, they looked interesting.
[26.10.2025]
Broooo, the Halloween event was cancelled due to weather conditions... Sad, but it is what it is. I'm now focusing on my only remaining Halloween plans which are: going to pole class on the 30th dressed as a pink skeleton (they got a pink skelly for Halloween and I couldn't resist trying to closet cosplay her - or as much as is possible when you can't wear many clothes)!
[20.10.2025]
Sized up my septum to 5g. I don't think anyone normal can tell the difference between that and the 6g, but I love it!!
[19.10.2025]
Health anxiety has been dragging me through the mud recently but I'm on the way out of this wave, I think... I'm no longer obsessively wondering if I'll live to see Gato release YKMET: Lawrence, haha. I did initially want to keep this page just for positive thoughts, but that's a bit unrealistic. Besides, it's my party journal and I'll cry if I want to. Visiting my parents soon, which will be a much-needed break from work and proper catch-up! Phone calls are just not the same... While we're there, my partner and I are also going to visit a Halloween haunt / maze event which we're super excited about! Those events are nowhere near as common in the UK, so it'll be our first one! Even if it's bad, it'll be good... y'know? :D
I've also been getting really into my MP3 player and putting custom themes and other bits onto it. I managed to get videos working too - I can put AMVs on there! I can put the entire Twilight film on there! The possibilities are endless...
[31.08.2025]
Nostalgia is actually painful right now. I miss how much simpler things felt 'back then'. Realistically, I probably only felt that way because I was a kid... but it really does feel like we've lost some magic. I'm still investigating how to lessen screen time on my phone, it certainly does feel like it eats up a lot of time that would be better spent doing hobbies. Contemplating getting a flip phone but it feels difficult to find a good balance with convenience (and find a decent/ reasonably priced one with supported bands in the UK). I need to charge up my Canon and start carrying my camera around again. I already started using a sketchbook again and am loving it. There's nothing wrong with using the tablet, of course, but it's still nice to create without a screen sometimes. I feel it makes me obsess less about the finished product and just enjoy the motions of creating like I used to when I was younger.
I threw a few sketches from my sketchbook onto the horror art page. The sketchbook's got grey pages which makes my white highlights stand out... Forever obsessed with the white highlights! Our neighbour also gave me some black cardstock which I've already used to draw some bits too!
[13.07.2025]
I'm trying for a bit of digital minimalism or, at the very least, using dedicated devices to reduce phone scrolling. My MP3 player got here recently and I've been having so much fun messing with it! Very painstaking to obtain and transfer files, but it makes you really consider which ones you actually enjoy hearing on a regular basis.
I've also uploaded SO MANY IMAGES to my art pages on here, check them out! :D
[16.06.2025]
I went to my partner's brother's wedding the other week and it was such a beautiful experience. The family made me feel so included, like I'd always been a part of them. One of them sent a message to my partner's mum just to mention how they enjoyed spending time with me... I also got on so well with strangers - speaking to them about fanfic and centipedes within about five minutes of interacting. If only all social events could be so joyous and authentic. The family thing, though... Yeah. It's wild to me. They've only met me a few times but I know we'd always do right by each other. It's a lot.
My neighbour randomly bought [partner] and I coffees earlier this week as well! People are still nice! ;u;
[16.05.2025]
With it being summer, I've been thinking a lot about how I would've loved to be a ranger at a National Park. If not that, then a camp counsellor (one of the cool ones that acts aloof, of course)... Haha. I'm past the point where it's a possibility now (and don't live in America either which is where I always envisioned it) but any time I interact with a book, game, or film that's set at a summer camp or huge park with sweeping vistas of towering trees... Yeah, I dream again.
I think, maybe, I'd be content just to visit a National Park one day.
[07.05.2025]
We went to a bookshop today (mostly just to browse) and another customer came up and recommended the book we were looking at! She said, completely unprovoked, 'it's really good - it has knifeplay'... hahaha. I had to give it a try, if only for the fact that a stranger recommended it in person so strongly. When I took it to the counter to pay, the cashier took a photo of it and said his daughter would be interested. THIS IS WHAT IT'S ALL ABOUT! I don't know... this interaction singlehandedly made me hopeful again. People reading, people talking. I love it.
ALSO, my partner won me a Kuromi plush from a claw machine on the way home and it only took £1. ♡